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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
came to madrasah finally after two weeks didn't seem too good seeing hidayah again is quite a good feeling i may not know when will be the last time i'd see her or anybody else so i'd behave my best to everyone i love had to settle Qiyam form n payment n admin stuff about the t-shirt so had to talk to the chairman of the youth wing n he was in the teachers' office talking to E-1 felt strange maybe not the talking but the eye contact i felt 'janggal' please hah, this is not 'love at first sight' or anything of that sort coz from the start i was already indifferent towards him yesterday slept past 1 am juz to finish baking cookies for teachers, n classmates who ran with me yesterday they were so motivating manz n it felt different with them ard my legs are failing me now but it's ok at least i can concentrate on prelims now i'm afraid, really but i believe i can do well be the best amalina today, no lesson, had aces day workout cookies n cream cake from angie's choice for loh n norliza collected box from photocopying lady to clear my locker concert till 11.30am first time any celebrations ended on time went home with faz on the computer upload photos saw those friendster profiles where there's birthday reminders amongst them, went to the one i didn't visit for a long time stared at the photos in that particular profile one by one... my heart sank. eyes felt warm. lips went numb. Friday, August 26, 2005
I'm ecstatic today! We had extended hmt todae until abt 5...so...i postponed detention n have to do a-mth mock test at home n put 2.4km run on hold coz ms tay has meeting...see lah...at one point of time i'm needed for 3 diff. purposes at 3 diff. places...im so popular! ahakz...ok...sumtimes it's gd to make urself feel gd...coz these 3 things ain't great things...so i must say or do sth to make myself look at them at a diff. angle so i won't be so disappointed...haiz...yarh n so fahimah postponed her detention too...but i don't know when we'll be having it...maybe nx tues...then we'll miss lit mock test..sheesh..i'd rather go for suspension...at least can study... So during the break at 4.20...nurul, aisyah, me were running enthusiastically up to AVT to wait for GARY who came back this time for teachers' seminar...seen him at abt 2.30 n shouted out his name from afar...glad he heard it eventhough there was a mob following ard him...haha...so when he came out...we(ard 10 of us which gradually increase later on)...SCREAMED!!!!haha...Amin was there too with Wayne...hehehe...guess what? i asked for gary's autograph again on my pink file!!! thanks to Soefie's black permanent marker...haha...n Amin's is on my file too...YIPPEE! (gary's way)...haha...we 'escorted' them to the carpark...haha...they walked past S1 S2 n S3....pooor thing my class's invigilator for a-mth mock exam is the bitchy type so they don't get a chance to like...ya noe...but they're all excited when they saw gary amin wayne n 'us' outside...haha...nurul already ran down to his car to put our note on his car...he was like "i thought SAMAN arh!!!"...hahaha...haiz...i love GARY. n Amin. n Melvin.i miss them. i want them as my teachers instead. I'm at the, top of the world lookin down on creation n the only explanation i can find is the LOVE that i've found eversince u've been around your LOVE puts me at the top of the WORLD... Tuesday, August 23, 2005
It's been a long time yar since i 'abandoned' u...very sorry... Ok...yarh...the drama "Sekolah Jalan Pemimpin" by AJC...i think they were successful in putting across their msg...they were comparing the leadership qualities of the people from the past with the modern society now...the modern society was put across as the main play...while they use slides to insert certain situations in the past which sort of correspond with the scenes...n in certain scenes...they incorporated the past with the present...those fighting scenes...where they use 'silat' n where the present characters symbolise the old characters from the past...which was nicely done xcept for some technical prob in the latter part...overall, it was quite nice...i like the character Darus...haha...photos we took on that day are in my albums k... The nx morning we had to go to school for Speech Day...haiz...they made us come at 8...when it formally begun at 9am...sheesh...so we go through speeches after speeches...then started on our fabric of crescent...photos also in my albums...look at my pufferfish! it's very cute!!hehe... So life goess on...on 6th aug sat...had intensive chemistry practical...from 8.30am to 12.30pm...did 4 practicals...got restless after three hours n the last prac sucks coz i didn't get any result...urgh.. Then on 8th aug mon...it was a half dae...photos will be uploaded asap...yarh...2 days holiday then comes the...jeng jeng jeng...3-days Motivational Programme " I am gifted, so are you!" by Adam Khoo Learning Technologies!!!!yippee!!!I love Gary Lee a lotz!!!n Amin n Melvin n Wayne too!!!special mention: "Thank you for knocking some sense into me...thank you for teaching me the hard way...you are my inspiration, Gary"...yeah...they taught us stuffs like super memory n speed reading...which is quite cool coz we're acompanied by techno songs all the way...woohoo...n other songs during the intervals...it last from 8.30am to 9.30pm each day...n the most important component of the prog is about the family relationships...yeah..u'd never guess what gary did to us manz.. Firstly...he was quite pissed with the girls as they were irritating...u noe...like mocking him n disrupting him...so initially we thought he was quite bitchy as he shouted at us...unlike amin n melvin...whom gary told us to be quite...soft...sth like...gary is the only 'man' in the company...n the rest are not really 'man'...u noe how this thing came about as u noe in girls' school...we do talk about gays...so that's how the topic arise...yarh...but...on the second day...after the shouting...he began to talk about how ungrateful we are...n start bringing up familes...i thought he was wasting time...he was talking about our mothers' sacrifices...in details...he used the term 'emotional rape' when mothers had to go for monthly check ups where the usually male gynaecologists will fiddle ard with their private parts to insert sth so that they n the mothers' can see the baby in the womb juz to make sure that we're safe in there...at that juncture i started crying...i really couldn't lie to myself so i just let it out...the he asked us to close our eyes...n he started telling a story... That i'm now in a very dark place...as i walk n walk...i saw a door...not knowing where it wolud lead me too...as i opened it...there was a mirror...in that mirror was Myself...Myself looked very dejected...her face full of disappointment as the result of the broken promises i made...the many times i lied n hate Myself... (n gary continued on talking n talking...making us imagine ourselves...of course he was saying 'you' instead of 'i') ...to the left was another door... (n he started a whole different thing...which i can't write back...coz it really hurts...briefly, when i opened the other door, my mum was there, looking very pale n old...she was apologising...n saying all the things she'd never say all this while...her true feelings, her hopes...everything...n suddenly...an apalling force pulled her away from me...n she was gone...then appeared my dad...frail n worn-out after many years of working for the sake of the family...also the same thing...he said stuff like..."i dunno wat else to do for you since u prefer to talk to ur mum rather than me...even if one day u become someone's wife...u're still my little girl"...n he fell to his knees n cried...n suddenly, the door close shut...when i opened it, my mum, dad, they were nowhere...i can tell u how bad i was crying during this 'hypnotising period' manz...every one was crying...abt 135 of us...some wailing...i think i'm one of them...nobody cared coz halfway, the lights were turned off...u'd be surprise how this guy, gary, manage to make us cry for close to 3 hrs long...yes...i'm not exaggerating...when we walked out the PAT(performing arts theatre)...we couild see many swollen eyes...n a pair of coz belongs to me...my mum even noticed n asked but i said 'nothing' n reminded her to come the nx dae...the condition in the PAT...it's like if a stranger walks in, he will think that a brutal murder had happened to someone whose close to us which is causing us to cry insanely...so this thing was actually real...it was part of the prog...i realised that when the music plays "CHILD" n the lyrics were shone on the screen...which made the tearing worse...fiz even told me sth the nx dae...abt her mum...regarding the o-lvl MT results they got on the 2nd day of the motivational course...which was quite heart-wrenching..if it happens to me lah...i think fiz felt the same way too...) So the 3rd day after dinner was the parents session...b4 this, i didn't noe wat the parents are set up for...but after that 'hypnotising period'...i knew what's gonna happen...that's why i reminded my parents to come...most of us prepared a letter for them as gary had told us to do so if we want to b4 it's too late...gary had told us, "I'll make your parents cry"...n yes he did...after all the presentation like ways to scold ur child n all that, faz was first up to give her speech...this, gary had told us b4, that he'll opened the floor to anybody who wanted to give a speech...fiz came out too...though her mum came late after fiz pestered her to come...she was reading from her letter...it was so sad...frin came out too..."abah i won't go ITE!" were her first words...n she also requested that they(her parents) hug her after that...but gary(i think) said "hug now larh" n everybody else followed in the cheering...her mum came down n hugged her in front of everyone...so touching...ebel...who called her mum 'live' n managed to say 'i love u' to her mum...but her mum replied 'for what?'...it was quite funny...yarh...but at last...she said 'i love u too' which made me cry again!!!...valerie(my partner in class) came out too...hers was quite sad...though her phone don't haf speaker...but we cld guess wat her mum said...she said she bluffed her mum coz actually parents can come but she didn't tell her mum abt it at all...she managed n 'i love u' too...she asked "did u get the msg or not?" n i think her mum replied "huh?"...which made us laugh also...at last she jus said it...she told her mum to say 'i love u' back as she had not said it for a long time...n finally she did...omg...it's very2 touching...erfa's speech was also saddening...she storied abt how she had been kicked out of hse yet still came bck n answer i need my sch uniform when asked by her father why she came back...n she continued "that's not true...i came back, bcoz, you all are my family...eventhough i was retained this year, i noe u have not given up hope on me"...oh manz...what a hard life for her...after everything...we go to the back to find our parents n pass our letters n hugged each other...my dad went out b4 that with nana to the toilet n neva came back...so only my mum was there n i hugged her n cried...a moment of bliss... after the whole thing ended, i realise how gary had help changed my life...i appreciate whatever he had done...i took home one of the lecture paper n asked for his autograph...even took photos wif him...ebel hugged him...man how i wish i cld do that too...i'm truly grateful towards him...i'm missing him...i'm looking forward for our Booster Session which will be after our prelims i think... I can talk on and on about this prog manz...but i shall stop now as my fingers are getting tired...anw...on 16 aug tue went to Ngee Ann Poly,Sch of BA's Open Hse...n got to tour ard it too...all year 1 students haf to take PE for their first semester...they can choose tennis etc., n they haf a swimming pool...quite cool...hehe...then last two days, 21 Aug sun was my cousin's wedding day...Abg Deky n Kak Tuti...yeah...stayed until ard 6pm...photos will be in my albums soon... Yesterday, 22 aug mon...sat for English O-Level Oral Exam...got an easy topic about family n parties...but i'm not sure how i did...whatever's done, its done...be forward looking... And so, i'd be very bz now...preparing for prelims n o-levels...i wish everyone out there all the best n we shall pray for each other's success too...tgt, we will soar up high! Remember GARY, BE THE BEST! [I'll DO my BEST! 5 HOURS each day! Believe in MYSELF!] Thanks a lot, Gary... | ||||
