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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
mengenangkan yang lalu menantikan yang kemudian terbungkam sendiri di tempat yang asal haruskah sejarah dikandung hayat haruskah yang tiba dilarikan daripada penghidupan sekerdil itukah manusia zaman ini zaman ini? mungkin zaman belum lagi berubah manakan tidak manusianya enggan? ~BuSyLaDy~ I am sick.again. stucked at home. Very bored. have to pick up some strength to go to sch tmr.for the last a-mth clinic session with principal. n last brush up session with Cekgoo for hml paper this 31st. Oh God, this fever n flu i got must have been passed down from my sis nurul. i can't tolerate my nose. i'm not talking much either. that's why i'm typing. thanks. my prelim results. i think my eng was the best improvement i made. got B3.yippee!!!although i nd to brush up on compre...coz i scored a miserable 8m. my P1 pulled me up. hml, A1! the rest not so good.i calculated my raw L1R5.23.after moderations to some of the papers. L1R5.18.minus hml, 16. okay.if our prelims were really that hard that they have to moderate a lot, i think i did fairly well. given the condition i was in. zero preparation. juz prayers that i made to God. Alhamdulillah. i'm slacking a lot. i will make sure that once i recovered, i'll stay out of house from morn till dusk.too many distractions. anw, bought some clothes for Hari Raya n finally went Geylang last two wks.haiz.prom dress.oh no. the pimple breakout on my forehead finally rested.but i think once i get hard on my revision, they'll appear again. oh wells.great. All the best to O-level candidates out there. Don't give up.Last lap!!!Sprint!!! Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Heya... "You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back" -barbara de angelis ok...i forgot to mention sth in my last entry...my family went to see ust. prof. dr. jumadi mustar again...on 23 sept...this time...his 'findings' are not surprising...though he has left my body...he's still lurking ard the house...targeted place, study room...can't say that it's wrong coz i did feel his presence there one night when i was studying for sci prelim P2...scary yes...coz i was alone...at ard 1am...coincidentally, my dad passed me the holy water that night...helpless, i sprayed it all over me...n then a sense of emptiness enveloped the room...i continued studying after that...ust. also prescribed extra medicines for me...n alhamdulillah...i feel better...i don't feel his presence anymore...i've helped my parents 'pagar' my house a few times already...n whenever i reached the study room...somehow i felt superior...having a 'weapon' to fight him...but whoever that will make it happen will be Allah swt...surprisingly, my cowardly sisters are getting braver nowadays...i really hoped, he has totally left me for good... anw, the botanical gardens trip was replaced by movie-watching...watched "The Notebook"...very SAD n touching...n part of "Ice Princess"...the JC talks continued...n was bored larh so i did some sketching...will touch up n upload them lah...sketches of my names...hahaha... today is 1st Ramadhan...i miss this month a lot...will need to catch up fast for-o-lvl...then we'll sit for the exams during hari raya puasa...how sad...but it's ok...we'll pay back all the time lost through grad nite, last-minute jln raye n 6 mths of work?? haha... life's been great...i'm a free person...FREE...UNLEASHED...alhamdulillah... today was my last chance to pay back my fast...my period came as expected on the 8th day of my 'pay-back'...so that left me with one more day to pay n luckily the chance came today...so...i don't owe anymore fasting days!!yippee!! tmr...Prelim Results Day...i seriously don't know what i'm feeling rite now...excited? anxious? sick? scared to death?...mebbe i'm still the phlegmatic person by nature...maybe only the exterior but only god knows how i'm feeling inside...i told you i've prepared for the worst...everything came to me by surprise...semuenye sudah diatur...jahil lah aku kalau tidak menerime qada' dan qadhar tuhan...akan ku perbetul minda dan diriku...berdoalah kalian yang menyayangi diriku bagi kebaikan dunia dan akhiratku...amin... this afternoon...i slept during asar until b4 maghrib...had a real bad dream...the first part...that "old man"(refering to sept 2 entry) was arrested together with another unknown guy...the second part to it...to cut it short...hidayah was kidnapped...i was with her...it was all so dramatic...how the guy held on to her while punching violently into her face till she fainted...i didn't know why i was so powerless...SFC 715C...that's the plate no. of the dark blue taxi which brought her away(if i'm not wrong)...leaving me behind, helpless...before that..we were actually shopping after madrasah at a place which looked like far east plaza...with saini n amsyar(strange)...then they disappeared...n that's when the kidnapper came...i searched ard for help...found hafizah...n she had very little sympathetic reaction towards the incident...in fact...she mentioned her dislike towards hidayah...but i talked out some sense into her n went to search for help tgt...met all kinds of pple along our way(which seems very long) like farihin, who was driving sth which looks like n MPV...but can u stand in an MPV? i dun think so...anyway, we were standing in that vehicle...asked him for help...then....walked for miles...came to a hawker ctr...with sth which looks like a money changer counter in the middle of the hawker ctr(of all places) but turned out to be a police station!!! yes...very strange...even getting to a police station took us so long...we even saw one of the police guy who came last sun to our madrasah to deliver a talk on theft n gansterism...however he was the tech person...he stayed at the back of the auditorium all the while...n back to my dream...he was with some police mates n seemed concerned abt the case we were reporting while the women at the counters appeared to be....stoic...over the kidnapping incident...indeed...an unlikely behaviour of policemen/women...when my bibik woke me up from my sleep...i brought myself up...n cried...was i upset that i couldn't help save hidayah? or the sour reaction i got from hafizah n the rest? or the arrest of that bastard turned out to be JUST a dream? now i'm confused... i break fast after that with my sis...intending to call hidayah after that to ensure she's ok n ask abt terawih...instead i got a call from her...buat saspen jerlah si hidayah tuh...i said hello a few times n there was no reply...i even shouted her name desperately...then finally i heard her voice...aku cekik jugak minah sorang tu tau...haha...she was scared lah after hearing my panicked tone...shall tell her some other time...anyways, i love u gal...dun forget that... i guess i have nothing more to say...ooh...one more thing...i apologise to whoever it may concern for whatever i did, said,did not do, did not say...whatever lah...that in one way or another had hurt u pple...i'm terribly sorry ok...utk korang2...nanti hari raye aku mintak maaf lagi ok? dgn sungguh2 dan linangan air mata...muakhakhakha... tanpa ku sedari airmataku mengalir terdengar ayat suci seruan takbir dah dah sudah...lagi 29 hari baru ade takbir...hahaha...Salam Ramadhan, Selamat Berpuase.Semoga amalan kite diterime Allah swt. Amin.
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