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Monday, July 31, 2006
Awallah Dondang '06 was so semangat tt i ironed my costumes until 3am. haha. then i realised i had no baju kampong. smsed dd to bring one for me. rupernyer si dek tu pon blum tdo. excited sngt. haha. i think i slept ard 4am. i remembered tt i set my alarm. but i woke up only at 8.20, coz bibik was knocking the door continuously. n tt was bcoz dd called home. nasib die tau nombor rumah aku. klu tak, tak bangon lah aku hari tu. anw, sorry to those who tried calling my phone multiple times to wake me up. i dunno how my phone boleh teroff. ish ish ish.. so, prepared stuffs. kene bawak speaker lagik. for prolog dance lah coz the dance was finalised only on fri nite. hish. then dd's dad came, along with as n jun, to fetch me from home. hehe. thankz2. tak larat aku nak bwk brg bnyk2 ngan speaker gedabak tuh. travelled all the way to Kreta Ayer Peoples Theatre. of course we reached ealier than the other cast lah. at ard 9.30. haha. jumped around that huge stage. sampai terjatoh pon ader. mcm jakon g2. haha. it felt so goooood....haha. those moments relived again. the show finally started at 8 and it was GREAT! SUCCESSFUL!!! That nite, was THE NITE. i had truck loads of fun. what a pity tt my cam's spoilt. if not, every single moment will be captured. it's ok. AD will remain in my heart. forever. everyone's happy with the performance. EVERYONE. Alhamdulillah. I LOVE u guyz! remembered jun's offer. to join her dikir group. semarak tun teja. if dd n as agree, i'm on. yesh. dk jamming again. n i heard they're preparing for an upcoming competition too...woohooo!!!! ok ok...save tt for later...semestral exam is one week away. ONE WEEK. concentrate amalina. oh yeah, n DPI mid-term tests too. time to mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug mug. Friday, July 28, 2006
fuhh..i thought i'm going to flung my STATS test but hey, i did not! haha...in fact i did better than my ITAB ICA exam on Ms Excel! haha...so happy! haven't got a fail grade so far...not bad! haha...will update my marks after i get all the results...hehe... left only 2 days. full-dress rehearsal at jiemin juz now ended late. mama fetched frm JE. reached hm ard 10+. seems like i've been coming home late since mon till today and definitely till AD itself...thought of gg silat tmr but, haiz...we'll be rehearsing again n dancers will be meeting up again with akil at 6...this time in SP...gd lah...no nd to travel...i'm too flushed out redi...haha i needa rest now. Thursday, July 27, 2006
i broke down 3 times today. i'm letting this out here so that i won't have to cry myself to sleep. Coz that's juz so pathetic. my energy's draining. i love the stage. it has been part of my life since 4 years ago. it hurts sometimes when u put in so much effort and time yet the one closest to you, the ones you love are not able or not going to be there to support you. instead find that your commitment is troubling them. or simply overbearing. that made you tear. while you are actually rehearsing! i managed to control it, didnt' i? dd n as were supportive enough. sorry haiqel for being so cold towards you. n don't tell the seniors please. mama already advised you not to continue. since there will be guyz now in your school. unlike your previous one. but this is just one of my passions. that, they don't understand. so you have to accept that, amalina. why do you have to raise your voice at your father? why do you have to show your bingitness? why do you have to scold him back? why? WHY?? your dad. who called you asking for you to be home bcoz he's concerned. who waited every night for you to come home. who stayed up late every night to remind you to sleep early. who monitors closely your academic performance since primary school, burning that enthusiasm in you to soar higher. who trust you as the eldest daughter. who consented your crazy idea of going to poly instead, when his dreams all this while was a jc. who's now suffering from an illness but have not successfully stop smoking. whose coughs you hear every night. who's going to leave you sooner than you think. and you cried after that phone call. regretting whatever you did coz your dad became a victim of you. and then you have to rejoin the other dancers for their mini "in the train" videoclip. it was amazing, how you regain back your composure infront of them. i had to fake it man. if not i'd pull their spirits down. but when i reached home and saw the faces of my family, i lost control again. i can't help but to feel guilty. how i hurt them. how i sacrificed them for the stage. and in the end suffer the consequences yourself? your exhausted body and mind. your declining performance in school. which triggered your PTN to ask "did you mix with the bad company? what's happening to you?"(gasp!). which pull you further away from your family. see lah, you're even eating your maggi, lunch cum dinner, by your own. so miserable. please understand. don't think that i'm having so much fun that i forgot you guyz. that i forgot to come home. this time, it has to be PERFECT. all the performances we did before this were free shows or competitions. not that we didn't put 100% into them but there was lesser pressure as compared to Awallah Dondang. this show is not free. it's 8 bucks. we want to give all the satisfaction the audience can get. we ought to. don't make me feel worse. "be strong babe" "asal sedih2...senyum lah" "yes! yes!! YAY!" "lagi satu kali please!" "mmg tak dapat duit. tapi kite buat sebab kite suke" Yessa...definitely feel better when u guys are there. THX! Wednesday, July 26, 2006
This feeling's a swayer. dangerous. formidable. perilous. fatal. Get it out of me. It's not the right time. The future of this is daunting. STOP ME. Mr. Brain, help Mr. Heart. Sunday, July 23, 2006
haiz... finally got to sit down infront of this comp n type loooong entries again... so many things to say don't know where to start such a confused girl lemme see... awallah dondang training is improving n we're getting better. less than 6 days left. however, epilog dance is nowhere near perfect.thus, we'll be meeting akil this tue at 5.30pm, practising at NUS. combined rehearsals on saturdays ended so late that i missed all DPI al-Qur'an tutorials for the semester. which is only 2 times lah. and aqidah and arab tutorials. the arab tutorial i attended juz now was like...woah...the tutor was talking in arab most of the time n i had a hard time catching up. now tell me how the hell am i supposed to sit for the exams. furthurmore on AD day itself, i can't make it for DPI at all, thus i'll miss some lectures. DAMN. both are important to me. i chose awallah dondang. while i registered for DPI long before that. mama asked me the other day. with a surprise/shock tone: Kau pegi mane tadi? SSP ah...Habes kau tak gi DPI? tak sempat...Astaghfirullah hal adzim...amalina amalina...kau ni...tak tau set ur priorities lah...buang duit jer bayar mahal2 utk DPI...and she walked off in disappointment. i was already teary n everything tt happened on the following days added on to that sucky feeling i already had...turning me into an extremely mad girl, so helpless tt the only thing i cld do is to cry while looking at my pathetic self in the mirror. and rite now when i'm typing, someone in msn juz came online with the nick name "Know your priority, DAMN IT!" hate it when i find myself stuck in this kinda situation...it only makes me weak and powerless and simply pathetic...useless...i can't quit halfway after all the effort we have put in together...but staying on means sacrificing even more...sometimes i feel like i can't wait for awallah dondang to be over...but...i don't want it to end so soon either...ssp trainings are like an outlet for me to relieve stress...the ssp family...it's like the only time u can fake ur actions, feelings, expressions...thus escaping from the real world for a slight moment... and when i trained so hard for AD, none of my amigos are able to be present on tt day. faz will be in Pesta Peti Putih, organised by Ekamatra. YOU GO GURL! nurul watching ndp rehearsal. noddy...i'm can't rmbr why...and anywayz, syimah was at jiemin juz now! ahakz! miss that babe. wow. it's more than 10 yrs now tt we've known each other. aisyah is involved too. so there's like 5 crescentians in AD '06, oh no, 6, plus humairah now in NTU. hehe. yar. so when AD ends, i would prefer to go home wif my SSP family and frenz plz. u don't have to trouble urself by 'fetching' me. i mean like, SERIOUS. Don't u get my hint? Don't take me to be as simple as other girls u have met. even those from my previous sch whom u are close to. coz i'm SO different from them. when i said that i don't like to go out wif guyz, as in, berdue, i MEAN it. n stop using 'i' 'u' wif me. GELI tau tak? i scream n ogle at Ariel, Azan, Taufik, Hyrul n the list goes on but don't think i'm that jinak. klu ye pon, jinak-jinak merpati. i've always had this barrier where i won't cross coz i'm scared tt i wld hurt other people's feelings though i kill myself inside but recently, i managed to break this barrier. thanks to ssp. i thought the problem wld be solved if i just be frank towards u, but least did i expect this kinda reaction. the 'tak tau malu' or the 'tak sedar diri' kinda reaction tt i get frm u. dasar, tembok! aahh...lagi satu...klu stakat fetch tapi naik mrt, puas hati aku balek sorang2 biar aku boleh tdo dlm train drpd dengar kau membebel pasal rock lah, metallica lah, jamming lah, itu lah, ini lah...u'll just go on and on and u'll sound like a radio rosak to me.hmph. oritez. reality check. the Statistic module u're taking still exist in the existing world though it has long became extinct in ur non-existing world. n in the existing world, it states tt u are going to have ur CA2 on Mon. n up to this point, u're still clueless abt Stats. great. and ur CD individual report is due on Mon too. n u have to do the 'liase' part of the group report. i don't know what on earth it is but what i need to worry about is time. i want n i shld go for IVP at 10am later since it's the last day and gg to be my first time watching. for experience purpose. it's gonna be handy if one day, i'm participating in IVP. weee!!! btw, AJC's drama so far has never disappoint me. went for this yr's drama pdn on 14 july.wif crescentians n cekgoo.i think their drama is worth more than $5. but it's ok if u maintain the price at 5 bucks. hehe. so little time. so much to do. wadeva kan lah. Saturday, July 08, 2006
i don't know why i'm here sitting in front of the comp at this hour when i came back home at ard 12 plus with an empty stomach n droopy eyes n aches all over nyp's drama production: PONDOK which ended at 10 was, ok lah we didn't get proper seats btw sat on the stairs maklumlah, tiket pree lots of room for improvement but those 'org-org giler' are really talented haha anw, no refreshments ah so we,me.as.dd.su.far.arip, were 'starving' haha for Awallah Dondang(AD) training earlier in sch we practised contemp dance me.as.dd.fal won't be doing the istana dance coz we were given the roles of 'batu2 kerikil' aiyah... i want to DANCE! haha nvm, i'll put in a lot of movements to our roles so that we'll get a chance to dance while singing haha when i was blurting out my ideas, arip said i was 'high' like the night b4 on the phone gdness nolah! i was juz too lazy to talk that night n my mind became overactivated juz now during training wakaka yar, so when i reached hm, did the neccessary stuffs found nth to eat seriously so munched on ruffles n drank 2 cups of milo today's a bad day man not even one proper meal you musn't skip your meals if you want to lose weight! haiz... so...hmmm...oh yar, pls visit this website http://clik.to/awallahdondang come down n support us!!! hehe... tmr is the 2nd AD comb. rehearsal with the other schs involved at jiemin pri 10 to 3 can't wait to learn new steps for contemp dance! pls do it before 1! coz dearry, princess amalina has to leave by 1pm haha where to? DPI class! first class for the semester! weee!!! haha well, DPI classes will take up all my saturdays except some in ramadhan n on average it'll be frm 2 till 10 my schedule is damn packed now arghhh so on 29 july i'm invited to crescent's speech & prize presentation day prize winners have to report at 7.30am when the event starts at 9am giler sey n my award is for higher malay oh wow haha can't wait to meet the others n especially cekgoo!!! n final rehearsal for AD on 29 july will start at 8am till 11am n i still have DPI class frm 2.30pm to 9.30pm n AD '06 is at 7.45pm till 10.30pm oh no.. i nd my replica amalina...mane engkau??? huh! jgn harap aku nak tolong kau! tsk tsk oritez oritez i have abt 5hrs before the start of tmr which is the comb. rehearsal so i'll make use of this time to SLEEP yes, SLEEP hish lastly, this tajam yet bernas nasihat i got frm apai "Org kate kalau takot, jgn main silat" ouch. | ||||
